Start of the pre-op diet




Pre-op pictures #1, can't believe I'm sharing these.....

 

Started the pre-op diet today. Was still out at the lake with mom and Rylee. It was actually pretty smooth. Didn't feel too hungry. Which was completely odd for me. One thing that it really made me realize was how often I reach for food. Whether it be while prepping food for Rylee, cleaning up from Rylee, or just scouring through the fridge and cupboards for snacks. I pick all the time. I thought of picking at Rylee's food so much. I really wanted too, but not at all cuz i was hungry. Out of habit? Maybe....i didn't. Not even once. I was proud of myself :)

Got home from the lake mid afternoon and the evening went quite smoothly as well. I wasn't nearly as hungry as I thought I would be. And, the big bonus, is that the boost shakes aren't too bad tasting. 

  

 





Pre-op pictures #2



My last meal yesterday was a bbq double cheese burger, about 4 mini pizzas, and 3 hashbrown patties with sour cream. So random. I couldn't even finish the burger. It was good though. And I wasn't even all that sad. Which tells me that I think I'm totally ready for this. For this huge change. Even after my last meeting with my psychologist, where I realized that a part of me feels like this surgery is me failing. Failing at the battle of the bulge. Well, I had a few days to ponder that discovery and I've decided to stop thinking that way (easier said than done), and think of it as an accomplishment. To make me healthier and more confident for me and Rylee. To be a good role model for little Miss Rylee. To be around for a long time and enjoy life and be happy on the inside and out. It's not a failure, it's me taking control. To start my new life :)

 


Pre-op Pictures #3