Well, it's the night before my surgery. I got nothing but well wishes today at work which was nice. But really, is anyone gonna say anything bad? No! Haha. Some people did make the extra effort to find me in the lab to wish me luck before they left for the day which was really nice. I do have some of the best, most understanding and supportive co-workers and bosses anyone could ask for. And I'm not just saying that cuz some of them will read this! ;) Haha!
Anyway, someone at work today suggested I post a blog about my journey. I was a little hesitant at first, but thought, meh. Why not?! I started a journal when I started the pre-op diet so I will copy and paste that into here to really start from the beginning. Please bare with me as I've never blogged before.
So, here goes, let's start at the beginning. I have been overweight most of my life. Never really obese, just had a few extra pounds. I went on my first diet when I was 13yrs old. My mom and I went on Richard Simmons deal a meal. Can't remember if I lost any weight, but that was the start of my dieting journey. I was very active and played almost every sport offered during high school and I was good. Real good, winning Athelete of the Year in grades 8, 9, 10, 11, and 12 plus other various MVP awards. Although I was always active, playing everything under the sun, I was always the biggest one on the team and it was always very evident to me. I weighed 173lbs all 4 years of high school (I got down to 166lbs when I graduated). My volleyball coach said to me once "you know Shannon, if you could just lose 10lbs you could jump so much higher". 10lbs hey? Well, here I am, 110lbs heavier than what I was that day.
I started putting on weight when I was in college. Going from sport after sport all year round to nothing but studying and eating greasy foods will do that. I graduated from college in 2001 and I think I weighed 185lbs, losing some within that first year of being an Animal Health Technologist and getting back down to 167lbs. Then the start of my uphill battle begun. I started living on my own, but was really lonely and depressed. The weight started to pack on. By June of 2002 I was at 220lbs. My highest weight at the time. And then I met my future husband to be. We had a great relationship at the beginning, and well, for the first 5 years of our relationship. He proposed, we got married, and things fell apart for the remaining 5. During our 10 year relationship, I packed on the pounds. I sit here today, 5 1/2 months into our separation, weighing 282lbs. And that wasn't even my highest weight. When I got pregnant with our daughter in 2009, I weighed 300lbs. Gained 15lbs with the pregnancy for a whopping highest weight of 315lbs. This wasn't the reason for our marriage crumbling, but I know it didnt help!
Last year, I lost 46lbs with the help of bootcamp and weight watchers. The issues surrounding my marriage and it coming to an end, helped me put back on 22 of the 46lbs I lost.
During our relationship I thought of lap band surgery often. I brought it up once and my husband said if it was something I wanted to do, that I should do it. Problem is, we were never in a financial position to afford another loan, until now. This separation has given me the opportunity to "afford" to do it. My parents are awesome and are super supportive and are allowing me (and my daughter) to live at their place rent free so I can pay down the loan before going to get my own place. And now, here I sit, at 11pm the night before surgery, so excited for my "new " life :)
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